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I met my boyfriend Tracy about 3 years ago. I had just gotten out of really bad marriage with a man who was control and abusive. By the time my husband and I had split up, I had no idea who I was anymore or if I could make it on my own. Even so the moment he was gone I felt this huge since of relief, like a heavy weight had been lifted from my chest and I could finally breathe.
The relationship between Tracy and I started out as friendship because I wasn't ready to jump into another relationship right away. I was enjoying my freedom too much. I loved just being able to enjoy the day with my kids, laughing and being silly. My children seemed to feel just as relieved as I was to be able to go do things without having to rush back home because my husband demanded we be there.
Tracy was very easy to talk to and he often made me laugh but still each time he would ask me to go out with him, to give him a chance I would feel a fear run through me and so I would always say no.
Then one night my friend and I decided to go out. We talked it over and decided that we were going to go to Love Valley and hang out there. It was all set so we were on our way there when she decided she needed to talk to Tracy before we went. So we met up with him in the Dollar Store parking lot. We talked to him for awhile and he decided that he's tag along with us since he was not too thrilled about us girls going there alone.
When we got to the Valley we headed to a bar there that had live music and drinks of course. The night started of a little slow but that all changed when Tracy and I danced together for the first time. When we touched it was unlike anything I had ever felt. It was like coming home, comfortable and reassuring. He was very much a gentleman which I had not seen in a long time. We danced, laughed and talked like we had known each other forever. I was sad to see the night end as we said good night and I drove my friend and I home. He asked me to go out with him the next night and I accepted. I was really nervous because it had been 11 years since I dated. To me things had changed and the rules of dating had really changed. So it was like going in blind. He took me to play pool and we had lots of fun together. We seemed to flow at the same pace and have a lot in common.
The more I learned about him the more I seemed to want to learn. When I looked at him my heart felt light and joyful. His smile gave me butterflies and still do even now. In the 3 years I have known Tracy he has brought something special into my life. Not just love or happiness but I kind of peace and harmony that I need. We are best friends and talk about everything together. We just enjoy each other no matter what we may do together even if its not something we enjoy doing. Our relationship makes me feel light and free not smothered and trapped like I had before. It is a truly refreshing change, almost like breathing in the fresh spring air in the mountains, where everything is new and blooming.
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